lover's light by paisley conrad

​i watch you lie i can see it in the shape of your mouth so i turn off the lights
in the dark i don’t see your twists 
easy 
all words are made equal when you can’t see their shadows

i let you fill me up but you no longer spill over you’re sharing too much 
too generous your mother taught you to share too early 
kinder
to keep some of it to yourself 

i break you but only inside of my head because outside i am all flowers and kisses 
you made me so white tulips to match your sweet lies
wilted
i watered you daily but all it did was drown our roots

i dash your body with a little bit of salt and reach for the pepper flakes so i can feel the bite in my mouth
i’d rather hot peppers erupt in my mouth than feed the fire of knowing where your gaze is
small
of your back is tender and freckled with constellations that i never knew how to read

i sink your bones into your bed my head at your chest your mouth in my ear hot as i look away
no poetry anymore but love is our poetry the lie we tell ourselves to make this worth it
shoved
deep into the corners of your bed i lose my edges

i hear your words dripping with violets windy with the sound of you leaving rustles as you stand
to get up to go to the bathroom you turn on the lights fumbling at your robe
hushed
shutting eyes in the light i see your shadows

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​paisley is a weather enthusiast, lover of arcade fire and student of canadian literature and philosophy. she lives on the ocean because she can't be without the salt of the sea. she is very sad on her twitter account @queenmagrat and her old lord of the rings poetry can be found at justagirlinspace.tumblr.com.

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